All those linking figures. All that expectation.
All of it singing to her.
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All those linking figures. All that expectation.
All of it singing to her.
Our traveling was so fluid it’s like we lived nowhere in particular.
Faces are remembered, words spoken; that brief encounter at the fair, the smell of old sunlight, a slow night train.
Stevie busies himself trying to match two blue pieces of sky. You watch him working the corners and the glands in your throat swell.
Inside the atoms of the cavity block extension live the remnants of a thousand John Players.
I convince Landa to be my accomplice as she culls rotten lettuce heads. They let Landa wear a knife on her belt. She has a weak heart and I think destroying crops makes her feel powerful.
Last night, I dreamt about them again. All moon-faced and lovely and it stirred that familiar ache.
We’re hit with a waft of espresso. The thunder of grinding coffee beans. The high-pitched hiss of steamed milk. Our wish is granted.
They do not know that the sun terrifies me.
Thinking about this, they grow wide-eyed and speak so fast that the windows become flecked with child spittle. How can they have made themselves so ridiculous by dreaming?
Underscoring the onset of nausea on the pier, feelings of self-loathing
also bubble up to the surface. “I get seasick in the bathtub, man,”
declares a ponytailed dude in Plymouth pink.
I told no one. Not my parents, not my older sister, not my little brother. I locked myself in the bathroom while my mother stirred tomato sauce and tasted spaghetti (we did not like al dente).